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Lately it seems that things have been going from amazing, to good, to okay, to bad, to you’d be better off dead. Well, he’s falling for her…and bc of me, he’s now backing off of me. That shows how smart I am I suppose. I feel like such and idiot. I never shouldve said anything and right now things would be great. He officially doesn’t say I love you to me on the phone and we probably won’t be talking much now. It honestly sucks. I hate it. I feel like I’ve officially lost him and it’s ridiculous. I’m sure I haven’t but that scared feeling is still there and there’s nothing I can do about it. I know that I’ll be able to push through things falling apart, but idk if I can take this much longer. k, bye.

Well today is officially the worst day ever. I am back in Kentucky now, missing all of my friends in michigan. I decided to go to church tonight instead of going to the races with my parents. I did it so I could see him and all of my other friends. When I get home, he calls me (as usual) he says he has bad news…he’s not coming to church. Not just him…his brothers and 2 of my best friends. Lovely. I wanted to see him soo bad. I don’t think he really knows. It upsets me so much, I suppose it shouldn’t, but it does..and I’m okay with that. I guess I will just push through it like I do with everything else. Byebye.

Well, lets see..I’m kind of new to this so bare with me haha. It’s aboutt 12:49 am and i’m sitting here with my best friend alana. I’ve been up in Michigan for almost a week now and it’s crazy how fast it went by. I feel like I have been here for weeks. There seems to never be enough time in the day i’ve noticed. It kind of sucks. I mean, I had a whole year of events to try to get my friends caught up on in about one day a piece. Very difficult. But so far it’s all good. I really miss Kentucky though. Mostly him..sometimes I wonder why. But, then he says something cute and it reminds me all over again. But uhm..I really don’t have any news right now sooo see ya(: