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Lately it seems that things have been going from amazing, to good, to okay, to bad, to you’d be better off dead. Well, he’s falling for her…and bc of me, he’s now backing off of me. That shows how smart I am I suppose. I feel like such and idiot. I never shouldve said anything and right now things would be great. He officially doesn’t say I love you to me on the phone and we probably won’t be talking much now. It honestly sucks. I hate it. I feel like I’ve officially lost him and it’s ridiculous. I’m sure I haven’t but that scared feeling is still there and there’s nothing I can do about it. I know that I’ll be able to push through things falling apart, but idk if I can take this much longer. k, bye.